day 4. of contemplation day.

before i start on this post. i would like to thank those who have put up with me over the past two weeks. hahaha. PPP's finally over and i miss it very the much. Fez was telling me the other day she dreamt making changes to directions while i still had the intro marching in sounds ringing in my head. post production blues. but it has been great. so if i forgot to mention ur name, well i forgot. sorry.

PPP performance cast and crew (actual day)
fez. shahirah. syahirah. atikk. haikal. nisa. hanom. ain. kamal. zalikha. harun. hakim. 'asyurah. fairuz. hamzah. shai. nadiah rosley. lilah. suriana. me.

other notable names.
izzati. fiza harun. faizal rawi. horis. linda. mateen. rab.

thanks for a great performance day!


now on to less serious stuff. was talking to nora about the oddities of life. haha. of all people why nora. haha. cos she's my great co-faci. and she's kinda cute. no lah. hahaha. she's a nice person. so she was laughing when she read this.

i have a problem in interpreting signals. whether they are being friendly, over friendly, flirty or otherwise. so to solve this huge problem. i wish to come up with a 10 colour coded system using those livestrong bangs.

red - sorry. im taken. go look somewhere else.
green - single, available and looking.
black - just out of a relationship.
white - have had no relationships before.
yellow - single but seeing someone.
purple - gay and proud of it.
blue - having a emo rollercoaster ride.
orange - not mutually exclusive relationship.
*edit (brown - single and not looking)

of course. this bands can be used in combinations. currently im wearing red and yellow. hahahaha. spain mah. just kidding. but they should do this band system thing. :)

fear still grips me. i know i should let it be. thus for now. i wanna decide clearly on which path i should really embark on. and go all out with full force of my abilities. it's not about pressure or about wanting to start on something new just for the sake of it. Insya'Allah my questions will be answered in due time. and i pray that God will grant me the patience and the clarity of mind to embark on this journey of mine. with the support of God and my dearest friends, may I have the courage and strength to make the correct decision when the time finally comes.