alright the new term is starting. and i have effectively one week to decide whether or not to stay on this small island i call home. but come to think of it. what am i really running away from?

these last few weeks made me realise a lot of things. first of all, i know who i want in my life ten years down the road. second of all, i know what i want from that someone. third. i've realised that marriages are for people who dont necessarily marry for love. well love is the small stepping stone towards any budding relationship but it's more so of the compassion, the passion, the ideals, the dreams that both share and want to see with each other.

i dont see myself getting married. i saw myself getting married once. with a certain someone. but i guess we sorta moved towards different ends in terms of our dreams. perhaps someday we'll meet back again. Insya'Allah.

sometimes saying goodbye is difficult. sometimes saying hello brings a heavy heart. i wouldnt want that. i jus want to say hi when i feel like it and farewell or see ya later. cos it's never goodbye. unless u're for sure that u'll never meet that person ever. that will be sad. but it is something that everyone has to go thru. albeit with friends, relatives, parents. we all have to say goodbye eventually.

i think this is a relatively sad post. but i can reassure all of you im perfectly fine. well sorta anywayz. i miss someone dearly. but i cant tell her. why? cos im a dumb fool. tt's why. i could call her up and say hello. i could say a simple hi thru an sms. even when she does come online. i jus wish i could say hello. and chat. like we used to chat when we first met.

*shrugs*

probably thinking too much. heh. but yeah.

wanna knowwho you are
wanna know where to start
i wanna know wat this means
wanna know how u feel
wanna know wat is real
i wanna know everything everything

kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita

i've met a few people recently. and became closer to a few long time friends. strangely enough, i feel myself being drawn. but nothing comes close. seriously. at the back of my mind. it's always that person lingering. so what im going to say here may sound crazy. but i may be in love and not know about it. hahaha. but then again. im skeptical of love. so it may not be love at all!

*phew*

something like what adrian mole is talking about especially.

so yep. still thinking about that someone. *smilez*