im irritated now. very irritated. seriously.

there are somethings in life i can accept. but not fucking lies and fucking secrets.

sometimes i wonder whether im too fucking nice. or whether im too fucking stupid.

but i guess it's a matter of fucking both.

why the fuck do i have to share my fucking life with you
bare my fucking soul
bare my fucking feelings
and be totally exposed and vulnerable.

it's damn fucking unfair.

but then again. when was this world ever fair in the first fucking place.

with expectations come disappointments.

im not angry at people.

im angry at myself.

for being too trusting. for being too nice. for being too understanding. and for being too patient.
and for fucking being just me.

look. people who know me know im not very fucking patient. i cant stand fucking queues. i cant stand waiting for people for a damn hour. worst of all, i cant stand waiting and being lied at.

it's fucking annoying.

i dont simply give a fuck for any jane, mary or lisa. but when i do give a fuck about you. give a fuck about me too.

it may mean fucking nothing to you.

but it means a fucking whole lot more to me.

someone asked me if it was fucking worth it.

and i said. fuck it. im going to give my best fucking effort.

but if this is what i fucking get in return.

then fuck it.

i cant stand it when people hide things from me. especially things that concern me. oh. so you promised that fucking friend of yours that u will keep a fucking secret about little old fucking me. but i guess you're a bigger fucking friend to that someone else cos i mean fucking nothing to you. how fucking nice.

when it comes down to the bare fucking minimum, the very least is to tell me that fucking shite.

cos it will fucking bother me. and no it is not fucking okay.

i cannot fucking sleep at all if you keep fucking not tell me the answer to the fucking question.

yeah maybe to fucking you it doesnt mean a fuck. but to me it is.

if i keep asking you, and u keep dodging and give me fucking lies, and fucking lame excuses and fucking reasons that make no fucking sense whatsoever in this whole fucking world, what the fuck are you trying to prove.

fuck
fuck
fuck

im too fucking irritated to continue this shite.

so people who read this fucking post.

keep fucking lying to the people you love. to the people you fucking care about.
who gives a fuck about honesty and reciprocity anymore?