a few days ago, i had a chat with yanbosantan about stuff i was looking forward to in the upcoming new year. some of the things she said really opened a lot of avenues and made me realise a few things that i dare not say.

thus, it made me realise that im really should be considering my options for the new year. and if it happens. well. good luck to the rest of you.

a small note.

sweetz n i discussed the uncertainty of people. how they behave in certain situations and how one will react. given the limited number of scenarios discussed, maybe it is good that it has come to this conclusion. on the other hand it sucks ultimately. the question remained. why do people hurt the ones they care about the most. we concluded that people are just scared. scared of losing the best thing that happened to them. scared of losing themselves in the things that they do. probably that's why they spin an uncontrollable web of lies and deceit so that they dont hurt them more than they already have. something like white lies. it's wrong. definitely. *shrugs* but u cant take it back once u lied can u? no matter how many sorries u say. no matter how apologetic u can be. wat's done cannot be undone. u already have hurt them and where u go from here. well i dont know.

according to sweetz, im probably running from the fact that soon, something is gg to happen. and it will definitely change a lot of things. her advice was to have fun between now and then so that it wont be that difficult later on. but i guess it's probably too late.

to me, it's better this way.

some people are destined to have great lives. others dont.