very few people matter in life. some more than others.
one thing strange i don't get is that they are just a phone call away.
and that is already difficult for people to do.
i mean to call.
to pick up the call.
to sms.
to reply to the sms.
during this bz period, tantrums flare. heated arguments ensure.
perhaps because of a silly mayo that's forgotten
or perhaps because "i-cut-my-hair-and-i-didnt-tell-you" routine
or perhaps you wait too damn long to reply a single message.
you see. what's the point in calling if the other person doesnt pick up.
what's the point in saying hi if the person truly doesnt wish to talk?
the point is...

cos the person cares.
the person misses you.
the person hasnt talked to u in days.

and doesnt know the reason why you're avoiding *her* like the bubonic plague.

now, look at the signs.

when u're around, *he* doesnt talk to you but talks to *his* friends.
*he* avoids being alone with you. meaning dinner and lunch meetups are a no-no
*he* rather msns you than call or sms
even which, *he* barely replies. but replies promptly to other people.
oh. did i mention that *he* would go out to have lunch with other people when you are also neck-high in studying? perhaps *he* thinks dinner or lunch with you would take ages. so 2 hrs in not doing anything makes perfect sense.
*he* blogs. and says *he* is busy.
you call. *he* doesnt bother calling back.
*ex-girlfriend* calls. wow. *he* happens to see the phone ring. or hear.

no one studies 24-7. no one. so between 5 mins of walking from study table to bathroom. cannot message? or call?
while waiting for the bus.. cannot call?
while in the bus.. cannot call?

now, right here and now, i wouldnt blame the poor sod who's in this mess. *she* was crying last night.

crying for a reason i cant fathom.

why cant *she* just leave *him*?

*she* says *she* cant.

cos you know why?

cos it hurts too damn much. and everybody has been treating *her* like that. all *her* past boyfriends. just before they break off with *her*

now. i would like to meet this *guy* and show *him* a piece of my mind.

giving the lame old "im busy" routine is so last year that it's two years ago. (bimbo moment here)

if something's up, talk la. are studies more important than salvaging your relationship?

friends would be there for ya. after exams. but even with exams. those who really bother in keeping contact. rather than living like a hermit (like some of us are trying to do). will keep in contact.

i think it'll be too late once december comes.

for the *girl*, hang in there. your friends would always be here for you. and they will always care for you. even if one poor soul doesnt appreciate you, get someone who will.

but it's always hard to let go.
of someone you love.
aint it?
and the more you look. the more you're reminded.
so how can you truly move on.
if u keep hanging out with *the ex*.
even if you think *he* was the one?

the world is unfair. live with it.
the world is cruel. live with it.

if the world was fair. everyone would be living in utopia and everyone would get what they want. doesnt work in this world.

if the world was not cruel. then people would not show empathy.

moreover, we cannot appreciate wat we have if we take things for granted.

if all you can say is sorry.
then i guess it's goodbye.