this is an old post. well. old depending on how old u are. and how long u've been online. and how long you have actually stumbled upon this blog. and how long u actually know this person in this story.

there was this girl. who was very into music. she had a rocker attitude towards her. but in actual fact she listens to ballads and was pretty much a romantic at heart. she kept to herself most of the time, and everyone treated her like a sister. even the guys. well the guys treated her like a brother. she longed for companionship. she was already 18 and have yet to see what a relationship was like.

she envied her friends for having good long lasting relationships. and most of them were already engaged. she wasnt. so one day she went to this part of the beach where she sits and wrote poems and drew on her sketchpad. did i tell u she's a pretty mean drawer? okay. maybe not.

dont get me wrong. she's cool. she's pretty. but she has this emotional baggage that no guy wants. or girl. but then again. people have been saying she's a dyke. which was quite bad. she was close to this guy once. they hit it off quite real. the chemistry was great. and they could talk about almost anything for hours on end. but the funny irony was that he was attached to her best friend. oh well.

then the best friend broke up. hooray for her. u'd think. the guy spun into bitterness and despair. not knowing where to go from that point on. he loved his gf very much. and sacrificed a lot to be with her. but apparently she wasnt ready to commit as much as she thought. she wasnt over her ex boyfriend yet. so this guy got all moody and bitter and began arguing with the girl in the story a lot. not meaning to. i mean he was jus bitter you see.

she hoped that one day he would notice her. but she didnt want to lose him. so she made him stay. she got the brunt of insults and everything which was quite sad. but everyday she would pray that he would not be so bitter anymore and that his heart would finally seek out what he always wanted. even if it's not her.

then one day, something odd happened. the guy kept calling the girl. but she didnt reply. went to her house and left messages on her phone. but still no reply.

now, the guy was getting worried. he wanted to find the exgf and ask about the girl but he didnt want to start another fight so he went to search for her alone.

where did she go? he thought.

now, people are always taking others for granted. this is just one scenario. he realised it. albeit too late. but then again, this story is far far from over.

he searched in school, he searched at her dorm. but she was nowhere to be found. even at the place where she hangs out with her friends. she wasnt there.

then he remembered the beach. he quickly rushed there. he hopped into a taxi and told the taxi driver to go to the beach. well the taxi driver said, what beach. the guy realised. he didnt know.
he realised that all this while. he didnt know much about the girl.

and why was he feeling this way? hmmm..

finally it was nearing dusk. he reached the last beach. he ran from one end to the other end, hoping to find her. but couldnt. he was lost. the person that cared most for him was lost. after searching so much in vain. he stopped at a tree. and sobbed.

he sobbed like he never sobbed before. he would give anything to get the girl back. he didnt wan to take her for granted and would cherish her with all his heart. but he just wants to see her again.

a piece of paper flew past him. and he immediately caught it.

it said

"tears had dried my beautiful eyes
fears told beautiful lies
now my heart's too bitter to feel
can love ever be real?

there i stood waiting for my prince
the one i saw ever since
can my heart ever love again
take it away my sorrows and pain

for now, you'll be you and me be me,
someday we'll meet again we'll see
for loving is knowing when to let go
and learning how to say no"


he stood up and looked around. where did this paper come from? was she here? did she send this?

he got up and ran franctically in search for her. not realising that you can never find love. love finds you. but he was dumb. heh.

so anywayz. he folded the paper neatly and placed it in his wallet. and set off for home.

till this day. he's still waiting.


*edit. he's still waiting for her to say hello. waiting for her to come back into his life. to come back to how things were. but things change dont they.....

im not the guy. nor am i the girl. im not even the ex gf. im jus a storyteller. who's bittersweet about life. heh.