steven johnson syndrome.

these three words. running through my head. since 2 oclock.

the last couple of days. has been dead tough. im amazed how easy my paper looked. considering the amt of material i covered. which was basically none. unless u count the time where i was in the cab on the way to the exam hall. and while waiting for the hall to open.

plus im not feeling too well. been having this on and off headaches. and dizzy spells. today was basically nauseous day.

it doesnt help the fact that i've crossed over to the dark side. as how yan puts it. i just dont know. i snapped. but this is something i shall fight alone. yes yan. i shall heed ur words.

the other day someone put up a post on frenster. i read it. and only one person came to mind. it's a bit weird. but yeah. quite unexpectedly. i mean the signs are there. i just don't know how to put it. it's either i float. or i fall down hard. right now, i have other things on my mind. but somehow it's always there.

im being incoherent but yeah. tt's me.

the most ironic thing. i was watching an episode of smallville. and it revolves around the same scenario. just the fact that im not superman. and i cant save the blardy day. sucks when u go back to reality.

love defeats all. right now, im skeptical.

i came to know about my family today more than i ever had in my entire life. can u believe it. it's a bit weird to have ur whole past being told to you. and it's from both sides of the family. im stumped.

happens that i have relatives in china, indon and malaysia that i dont know of.

surname is tong. it just gets better.

and all i want right now. is to look forward to a better future.

if i cant have it. then what's there?