sometimes i wonder why people study. they mug. and mug. and mug. everyday of their lives. not that they dont get good results. some do. some struggle to maintain theirs.
do people really want to find out whether they are stupid? by mugging and not getting what they *should* get, it's really kinda disappointing. imagine if u put a 20 hr week towards studying for ur modules. and then u get a B- when u really expected an A- or at least a B+.
well. expectations lead to disappointments. and it's a cruel cycle.
some people try not to study. or claim not to study. but they do. hiding at some corner of the library. having three texts with notes. and lecture notes. and previous sem's notes. hah. crazy nut. im assuming this happens. havent really seen one yet with my own two eyes.
i saw yan's nick. 10,000 promises.
i would like to add. 10,000 promises. 1,000,000 disappointments.
why do the people close to us disappoint us the most? is it because we put them up so high in our so-called ladder such that we expect them to treat us as such. reciprocity sometimes is lost. or sometimes people are just too calculative. if i buy a ten cent sweet for u, u'd expect a ten-cent sweet back. that sort of thing. (analogies escape me at 1.30 am).
clearly, no remorse is shown. or the remorse is shown quite too late.
"eh, today's ur birthday? oops. i forgot. i didnt get u anything. after exams okay?"
now, im not the sort of person who gives stuff out for birthdays. it's just not my thing. i dont expect much for my birthday either. rather not have presents. would rather spend time with those i treat close to me. but i really appreciate those who remembered. call me weird. so those who get gifts from me on their birthdays, well, u're seriously one in a million. since singapore is like 4 million. well u share it with 3 others. roughly.
im just stating the birthday scenario as an example. this issue of disappointments relates to something way bigger. and maybe never going to be talked out. until exams probably. or never. *shrugs*
are people really that hypocritical? i know of this person whom i *thought* was cool. however, it seems that preferential treatment exists within this person. you look at the person and go hey, let's do lunch. let's call this person jane. jane would say maybe. den bubble ya at the last minute. so usually u'll go like, "next time alright?" so jane says sure. but it doesnt happen.
but whenever it involves someone else, she'll make an effort. weird huh.
something like she wished u'd died or something.
and then u ask jane something. she says something totally ridiculous. and the next minute her fren tells u a totally different story. and where do u stand. do u trust her still?
or maybe she's just out to annoy you. or tell u discreetly to fark off.
amidst preparations of exams, some people are having fun. i mean i had fun yesterday. playing court soccer. scoring goals. and gg to fish and co to have a nice meal with my friends. movie is one such possibility for stress relievers too.
so i ask bob (a totally random name here). hey bob. wat about a movie. he says not sure. he may have some plans. but he'll keep it in mind. so then he tells u sure.
then he completely bubbles u. by going out with a chick. well done i say.
so u're like a goondu.
so u're relentless. u ask bob again. he says no. not gg to be free.
then he goes off to watch a movie which the same chick. hah. so do i sense a pattern here.
why lie. why bother explaining urself. i dont get it. i just dont. are people such hypocritical creatures? or they just simply cannot be honest with friends.
it's like i ask u (the reader) out for dinner. and u completely ignore my sms. and suddenly *poof* u have plans for dinner. what sucks is that i know about it. it's different if i dont know about it. and the best part is. my smses reach u promptly. the replies doesnt. totally different for others.
right now, u're saying. hah. im a loser. what makes u think this is me. and even if it is me. what proof do u have.
no expectations. no regrets. no disappointments.
people will always disappoint you. a stranger. a friend. ur parents. ur siblings. ur wife. ur husband. they will always disappoint you. no doubt about it. even you are also susceptible to disappoint them. but how are u going to make up for it. be a farking idiot and act as if u're totally right and not be sorry. or make amends?
with that i end off with two words.
FUCK YOU.
do people really want to find out whether they are stupid? by mugging and not getting what they *should* get, it's really kinda disappointing. imagine if u put a 20 hr week towards studying for ur modules. and then u get a B- when u really expected an A- or at least a B+.
well. expectations lead to disappointments. and it's a cruel cycle.
some people try not to study. or claim not to study. but they do. hiding at some corner of the library. having three texts with notes. and lecture notes. and previous sem's notes. hah. crazy nut. im assuming this happens. havent really seen one yet with my own two eyes.
i saw yan's nick. 10,000 promises.
i would like to add. 10,000 promises. 1,000,000 disappointments.
why do the people close to us disappoint us the most? is it because we put them up so high in our so-called ladder such that we expect them to treat us as such. reciprocity sometimes is lost. or sometimes people are just too calculative. if i buy a ten cent sweet for u, u'd expect a ten-cent sweet back. that sort of thing. (analogies escape me at 1.30 am).
clearly, no remorse is shown. or the remorse is shown quite too late.
"eh, today's ur birthday? oops. i forgot. i didnt get u anything. after exams okay?"
now, im not the sort of person who gives stuff out for birthdays. it's just not my thing. i dont expect much for my birthday either. rather not have presents. would rather spend time with those i treat close to me. but i really appreciate those who remembered. call me weird. so those who get gifts from me on their birthdays, well, u're seriously one in a million. since singapore is like 4 million. well u share it with 3 others. roughly.
im just stating the birthday scenario as an example. this issue of disappointments relates to something way bigger. and maybe never going to be talked out. until exams probably. or never. *shrugs*
are people really that hypocritical? i know of this person whom i *thought* was cool. however, it seems that preferential treatment exists within this person. you look at the person and go hey, let's do lunch. let's call this person jane. jane would say maybe. den bubble ya at the last minute. so usually u'll go like, "next time alright?" so jane says sure. but it doesnt happen.
but whenever it involves someone else, she'll make an effort. weird huh.
something like she wished u'd died or something.
and then u ask jane something. she says something totally ridiculous. and the next minute her fren tells u a totally different story. and where do u stand. do u trust her still?
or maybe she's just out to annoy you. or tell u discreetly to fark off.
amidst preparations of exams, some people are having fun. i mean i had fun yesterday. playing court soccer. scoring goals. and gg to fish and co to have a nice meal with my friends. movie is one such possibility for stress relievers too.
so i ask bob (a totally random name here). hey bob. wat about a movie. he says not sure. he may have some plans. but he'll keep it in mind. so then he tells u sure.
then he completely bubbles u. by going out with a chick. well done i say.
so u're like a goondu.
so u're relentless. u ask bob again. he says no. not gg to be free.
then he goes off to watch a movie which the same chick. hah. so do i sense a pattern here.
why lie. why bother explaining urself. i dont get it. i just dont. are people such hypocritical creatures? or they just simply cannot be honest with friends.
it's like i ask u (the reader) out for dinner. and u completely ignore my sms. and suddenly *poof* u have plans for dinner. what sucks is that i know about it. it's different if i dont know about it. and the best part is. my smses reach u promptly. the replies doesnt. totally different for others.
right now, u're saying. hah. im a loser. what makes u think this is me. and even if it is me. what proof do u have.
no expectations. no regrets. no disappointments.
people will always disappoint you. a stranger. a friend. ur parents. ur siblings. ur wife. ur husband. they will always disappoint you. no doubt about it. even you are also susceptible to disappoint them. but how are u going to make up for it. be a farking idiot and act as if u're totally right and not be sorry. or make amends?
with that i end off with two words.
FUCK YOU.
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