probably getting edgy. and very irritated. plus the fact that i cant seem to concentrate while my life is messy makes it all frustrating.

last post showed that i need anger management. probably. but at least i know that i can vent it out. in a better way than punching some innocent guy or trashing a ferrari (gasp).

im not the best person to talk to right now. you can try. i wont snap at you duh. unless u did something wrong. but i will be dead stoned and lifeless. emotionless.

sometimes life gives ya a penny for the thousands u put in. but u gotta look back at life and throw it back some love. and perhaps hope it comes back to ya.

things are meant to be. there's only so much one can do.
everything happens for a reason. and that reason is you.

okay. i typed that out in like 2 seconds. and surprisingly it rhymed. wow. so shoot me if small things make me happy.

i push away those i really care about. i try not to be too close to people. cos im scared they will leave. probably to see if they bother at all. i dont know.

people say that they will stay friends. yeah. i get that. but do people actually bother making contact? i dont know. im cynical. i guess when people say that things wont change. they are dead wrong. things will always change.

the only constant thing in the world is change.

i read d's blog. well...she typed out something really nice. and i shall try that instead.

im glad that i am not too fat cos if i am, i wouldnt be able to get into my jeans.
im glad that im not too thin, cos if i am, i wouldnt be able to fit into my jeans.

im glad that i still have my health, cos if i dont, i would probably be in a hospital right now.
im glad that im not sick, cos i wont be able to study.

im glad that i dont have too little friends, cos if i do, i would feel take them for granted.
im glad that i dont have too many friends, cos if i do, i wouldnt be close to any of them.

im glad that im single, cos at least i could work towards in being the perfect person for anyone.
im glad that im not married, for being married and in my state right now, it's not such a perfect time.

im glad that that im not too smart, if i were, then i would be a geek and not be athletic.
im glad that im not too dumb, cos if i were, then i would be struggling to understand wat's pi.

im glad that im not too rich, cos if i am, then i wouldnt know the value of money.
im glad im not too poor, cos making money would always be on my mind.

im glad that im not too lame, cos that would be such a turn off.
im glad that im not a little lame, cos that would mean i couldnt get jokes. (i think)

im glad im not that good looking. cos that would be such a pain to attract every single girl. or guy.
im glad im not that ugly looking. cos at least i could attract someone. heh.

im glad that i dont suck at computer games, cos then i would get thrashed every time.
im glad that i do suck at computer games, cos then i wouldnt have the drive to keep beating the computer.

the list goes on.

i should be glad. dont you.

i guess you'd think when im miserable i would love to be left alone? nah..

you're wrong.

that's the last thing actually.

*shrugs*