for the first time in my life in uni. i have never been this lost. lost in schoolwork. it's getting too much for me to take. and no outlet to vent it out. seriously. just today i felt like collapsing. i have been awake since wed. apart from a few (maybe 3 or 2 short half hr naps) but other than that, i've been awake.

i duno why i cant sleep.
i duno why im getting paranoid.
bit by bit it eats me.

im not okay.

and i just found out i have meeting tmw. at 10am. and time i checked my mail. 1230am.

i havent had a decent break since jan 05.

if i collapse. u will know why. hopefully.

help.

sigh.

"will you be able to understand me?
the thoughts lingering in my head?
why wont you try to see
it's the little things that make it great"

a simple hello. and how are you. will make your day. but sometimes it's never enough. isnt it?

im not okay.