two things to talk about.

1) listen to this story.

under the moonlit night, she walks upon the hill slowly walking to her destination. little did she know that at the same time, a young man walks by the trail near the river. leading, perhaps to the same desination. the girl spots the man, the man quietly going his way.

would they meet before they reach their destination?
or would they meet at the very end?

as she walks down the path, he walks up. they will meet!

but she stumbles upon something blocking her way. and the man is unable to do anything else but wait.

and wait he did. patiently. ever hoping.

at last. she comes down, meeting him for the very first time. saying hello. never saying goodbye.

i could change the girl to an angel. but im lazy. jus relating a story here. readings bore me. heh.

2) im feeling lethargic of late. politics really make me feel down. but wat to do. i would not mention names, in the so called transparency i so love to preach. cos this involves a whole lot of other people who may or may not be innocent.

why are u taking sides. i know the nature of ur job but issit necessary to impose restrictions to me and me alone. is that unfair? yes, we may be frens and we do go a long way. but i feel as if u dont know me well enough to judge me. i do care for u yes. but sometimes u make me sick. why u ask. well, for instance, u always want me to come on time. yet u slack off when it comes to others. is this hypocrisy. i rushed. for you. twice. only God knows how tired i was and yet i ran. but upon meeting me, all u could give me was a snide remark. i have forgiven u the last few times u said i was being petty. would u rather have me blow up in ur face. or would u rather have me walk away and cool down. i dont get u. u make it seem as if me walking away is some big joke. it saddens me that i call u a fren. and we have gone thru so much for each other. yes i understand u had my back for many a times now. but i have not spoken anything bad about you thus far have i. i cannot believe that u have such a condenscending attitude towards me. sigh. i just wish that in my heart i can forgive u. cos it tears me up when i see u everytime. its not wat u say to me that matters. but wat u do not say. you know how i feel about her. yet u always. yes always give her more leeway than me. and knowing her. once u give her a metre she would ask for two. she makes everything a big joke. i tried to be serious today. yet she makes it as if this is just play for her. i doubt i can stand it even more. she disgusts me as a person yes. her character is undeniably rotten to the core. but i believe that she can change for the better. i pray to God she does. cos she can always be a much better person than she is now. for all our sakes. and for hers.

forgive me if i have wronged u in any way. and perhaps gave u too much of my life to begin with. maybe in time, we shall be as close as we once were. but now, let me be on my own n not assume things and judge me unnecessarily.