SAM is finally over. back to reality.

somewhat lost cos my evenings are free. no rehearsals. no hanging out with cool bunch of people who will probably slaughter u for making their life a living hell. heh. but yeah. somewhat lost.

today's performance was better than yesterday. wonder what will happen if the show was actually extended, i wonder how we will do.

reception from audience was mixed of course, considering the content. but i m glad the message was brought across and something should be done about it.

to those who think that the show shows negativity about malays, try and do something better to change their mindset. cos this is how we see it. this is how we deem it to be. no matter how exaggerated, no matter how much u dislike it, i can only say that, if u did not laugh at ANY point in the play, or felt a bit remorse for the malays, i can only say u are like a corpse, one without feeling.

for those who came, i thank you. without ur support, we couldnt have given a great performance.

for those who want to see more, heh. akan datang. heh.

for those who thought the play was brilliant, dont feel sad for not being part of the cast or crew. heh. cos u were the inspiration. :P

on the way back, i remembered a few things i've read somewhere before. and it struck me. i mean it's from a comic. heh. yeah yeah. spider-man.

you see, mary jane is an actress. and the husband is peter parker. she has done many shows before, but peter has never once attended. sad right?

well, recently, he did. and that meant a lot to his wife. i mean, why shouldnt it be right?

similarly, i felt that way. without the support of so many people. family, friends.. it really means a lot to me.

SAM is something i had hoped for for the last 5 mths or so. it's something i loved doing and wouldnt mind to do it again. rehearsals and endless bickering are all part of understanding one another. but in the end, we all have had loads of fun.

so why in the midst of happiness, do i feel sad?

issit because it is all over? is it because i will be getting back to my old mundane life? probably.

like i said, SAM was a great distraction from my life. the messiness of it all.

but to not share it with someone, something this special to you. it's a bit sad. high hopes were probably placed on people whom you were expecting to show, but didnt. i mean u can be understanding that they would give their support and all, but to bask in the limelight with you and share just one special moment just cherishing that single moment. is more than anyone can relate. ever.

i wished it could have been shared. but i guess it wasnt.