i was blog hopping. well, considering plans were shelved due to much presumed laziness... and other stuffs. hah. okay, so. i always digress. again. i was blog hopping. after a quick remark by nura hassan, yesterday at the library.

apparently, the freshies do keep updating on the likes of raihan, baik boy and jack. well. yah. haha. (and no. i DO NOT like it. shaddap f. dun snigger. fan club or NO fan club)

so i was reading. i shall put snippets. cos why? im bored. haha.

"but anyway, raihan was there, of course, looking even more adorable than the last time, with his specs and new haircut. ahhhhh cutenyer. i kept glancing at him, he's SO comel!.....yeah tt shd be it. raihan rocks, woohoo!"

im jus cutting the ones that mention me of course, bwahahaha. but if i had a book to throw. yes i would throw it. wat a waste of a good book. heh.

get a life. dear-person-who-need-not-be-named. pass the word ard.

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i felt like writing a poem. but nah. shall repost one that grabbed me a while back. one of the more favourite ones i have seen. thus far.


First Love by John Clare

I ne'er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete

My face turned pale, a deadly pale
My legs refused to walk away
And when she looked what could I ail
My life and all seemed turned to clay

And then my blood rushed to my face
And took my eyesight quite away
The trees and bushes round the place
Seemed midnight at noonday

I could not see a single thing
Words from my eyes did start
They spoke as chords do from the string
And blood burnt round my heart

Are flowers the winter's choice
Is love's bed always snow?
She seemed to hear my silent voice
Not love appeals to know

I never saw so sweet a face
As that I stood before
My heart has left its dwelling place,
And can return no more.

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Everyone talks about meeting the ONE. the one who would wipe ur tears when u cry. make ur insides laugh till u cry. and it's jus like one whole big process. heh. but the thing is, is there the ONE out there? im not being skeptical, dont get me wrong. but dont u realise whichever one u choose, is the ONE whom u decide to be the ONE?

no one is perfect. but we make the person perfect. flawless. the beauty is what we see and that is what hits us head on. but wat about the flaws? wat about the things that you dont agree on? your interests, your passions, what drives you may not drive the other.

sometimes we are adamant to find the one, we lose ourselves along the way. lose friends. jus lose what u strive for in the beginning. some people devote their entire time to their gfs, to the girl they are chasing after. will i be that person? i dont know. but it seems as if, im learning to let go and it should be that way.

your lives can intertwine as much as u want it to be, but can you really grow if u hold on to each other? wat about things that matter in your life? work? studies? your family? sacrifices must be made, i understand, but does it really mean to throw your hard work out the window jus cos you are in love? that's immature thinking.

with that said, to those couples who are taking time out to find themselves while still being in love with the ONE, and the ONE being supportive of this decision, i salute you.

"i know i still love you, i wanna grow old with you, but i need you as a friend now than a boyfriend"

and maybe someday, God willing, you'll find yourselves back in each other's arms again. :)

(disclaimer: no. didnt happen to me. heh. jus a few cents worth. at least i hope it makes sense. cos after typing so much, i believe it sounds gibberish)

still sniggering.