i know i should be studying. but i hate it. so watever. maybe getting complacent. or maybe lazy.
things havent gone truly the way they have been. or so they havent gone the way i expect them to be. i should take a gd long break. and sort out my life. for good. but then..we all are procrasinators.
about a year ago, i was on that path to learning myself. change for the better. which i did. but somehow, it ended up to be somesort difficult towards the end. life is never random or so you may think. or wat the ipod shuffle ad would say but whoever u meet today, or whatever u do will eventually lead on to something. it might not be better, it might not be worse. but all one can do is look to the good things that have happened since any mishap or a bad day.
everyone's afraid of something. but we all gotta live up to our fears. and the only way we can do that is to visualise that fear. only then we can overcome it.
sometimes we are all afraid of disappointments. let's face it. ppl disappoint all the time. some more than others. tt's why we're human. we all make mistakes. just don't fear that you would be that disappointment.
maybe im fearing that i would be that kind of disappointment. not being able to be like the one before. or anyone else that came close for that matter. maybe that's why i try to screw everything up so it wont look that bad. blame it on some event that probably occurred "randomly".
probably i havent been the best person to be around with. the best friend. the best boyfriend. the best whatever. or maybe i jus expect too much from the people i care about.
but it's all good. i hope. maybe i should live up to my fears. and live life.
"to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting."
-e. e cummings
things havent gone truly the way they have been. or so they havent gone the way i expect them to be. i should take a gd long break. and sort out my life. for good. but then..we all are procrasinators.
about a year ago, i was on that path to learning myself. change for the better. which i did. but somehow, it ended up to be somesort difficult towards the end. life is never random or so you may think. or wat the ipod shuffle ad would say but whoever u meet today, or whatever u do will eventually lead on to something. it might not be better, it might not be worse. but all one can do is look to the good things that have happened since any mishap or a bad day.
everyone's afraid of something. but we all gotta live up to our fears. and the only way we can do that is to visualise that fear. only then we can overcome it.
sometimes we are all afraid of disappointments. let's face it. ppl disappoint all the time. some more than others. tt's why we're human. we all make mistakes. just don't fear that you would be that disappointment.
maybe im fearing that i would be that kind of disappointment. not being able to be like the one before. or anyone else that came close for that matter. maybe that's why i try to screw everything up so it wont look that bad. blame it on some event that probably occurred "randomly".
probably i havent been the best person to be around with. the best friend. the best boyfriend. the best whatever. or maybe i jus expect too much from the people i care about.
but it's all good. i hope. maybe i should live up to my fears. and live life.
"to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting."
-e. e cummings
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